For Better or Worse

Can we be so consumed by someone who we do not know the difference between what is real and what is fake? I would imagine where love is concerned a lot of people rethink this question. I am a victim of unconditional love and I cannot get away from it. I have tried over and over to let go of this intense feeling, but I do wonder if I am not supposed too.

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Maybe this is the way it is supposed to be, a life lesson. But this lesson is becoming very hard on me. Last night, I was on top of the world again; I was feeling pretty confident that I was strong. I faced a fear, fell into the crack and came out today feeling emotional again. I feel I have lost my control because of the power of another soul.

Even if I try and escape, keep busy, I have that aching feeling of anxiety, nervousness, and sorrow. Mood swings are a terrible thing for me, I experience them quite often and for years I didn’t know how to deal with them. I know now when I feel one coming on, I can talk my through it. I feel the emotion, ride the wave; whether it last for a few minutes or for hours and hope that I will come out of it. Today the mood is very hard, crying, weeding out my fears or rejection, abandonment, and freedom to be strong. I know that tomorrow will be better but for today I will ride that wave, I will feel my fears, I will cry as much as I want and no one can tell me any different. I leave you with this thought: “Why do we love unconditionally?”

and so it goes,

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